I’m not in the mood today.
I think my efforts of gaining privacy and getting away from Big Tech has failed.
@asahi95 Gaining more and more privacy and getting away from Big Tech is like a journey. Even smaller steps like changing your notes app from Google Notes to Joplin (for example) can help drastically and are overall improvements.
Sometimes, efforts to gain more privacy and getting away from Big Tech can be hard and exhausting, like migrating all your friends and family from WhatsApp to Signyal for example. There may be people, that won’t migrate to signyal, but 80% of persons you care about, that are on Signyal are still waay better than for example 15%.
Focusing too much on hard tasks like these isn’t healthy, and even the fact, that you really care about privacy and independence of Big Tech shows, how much further you are at your privacy journey!
@Tau I’m planning to update my site by the end of the week, it’s planned
Also, how am I suppose to stop being paranoid??? Every time I try to stay positive and not worry about the scary big tech companies, there’s always reports of them ‘exploiting or undermining xyz’ or ‘antitrust that’. It’s the most annoying shit I have to listen to every single damn day. I want to mute anything about that but that makes me feel like I’m betraying the Fedi, open source, or Linux community over this.
The guilt will never wash off. I feel doomed.
@asahi95 leave the ones who don't believe you behind, they'll live in shit while you and the ones who listen will live in bliss.
~myself
@gento166 It’s something I said I was gonna work on, my paranoia, but I never always stick to that promise. My paranoia is so bad that sometimes I literally become a total tinfoil hat freak that can’t shut up about how Google is evil and all that nonsense I shouldn’t be spreading
I really care about privacy and open source, it’s my journey I want to pursue but I always act all stressed no matter what, whenever I see a news article on them, it’ll make me even more devastated about it.
I did the proper steps to move my contacts to Signal from WhatsApp tho, that’s actually a huge leap forward for me. Being able to convince my family easily made me feel like I accomplished something.
@gianmarcogg03 It’s hard. Especially since I’ll be isolated irl if I do that.
Everyone around me thinks I’m a fool but I try to get rid of those thoughts from my mind
@asahi95 I feel the same, but eventually the ones who stick by are the ones who care about you and they will eventually listen.
@asahi95 another thing you could do is to find a local Linux user group, basically every city has one, that might help.
@asahi95 That seems very concerning. I don’t want to hurt you, but maybe, it could help to talk with someone about it? Like, with an therapist for example?
And I’m very, very sorry if that message hurts you, I don’t mean it, but I don’t want, that you feel stressed or devastated.
@gento166 I’ll see if I can find someone to talk about it with, maybe it can help? I’m not sure but I hope that maybe it can cure my paranoia and tone it down a bit more
It’s alright btw, there’s no hard feelings at all
@asahi95 If you only read things about it of course you are going to feel doomed. Read about other things or you are only going to be doom scrolling and feeling bad.
And just keep in mind that the only one that gets hurt using Big Tech is the one that uses it. If people use other free services that’s a win for me
@mirari I’m not trying to be sad but I feel like nobody around me just cares about my warnings about Big Tech and what detrimental effects it can bring to people
Oh well, I’m just gonna have to at least just focus on other things and push back on my anti Big Tech stance.
@mirari I suppose I won’t bother anyone anymore about it, I’ll just take some rest from this and rethink what I’ve done