having this account reverted to how it was throughout last year’s depressive episode is not doing good things to the brain
really want the clean slate, instance has inconvenient downtimes for me anyway and the frontend sometimes just stops working on some devices sometimes
teeth are in an abbysmal state too, really just not doing great in general
really wish anxiety werent as bad as it is, been putting so many things off for far too long
so used to being forced to do shit by others weve lost the agency to do things we need ourselves so now that people have finally taken a step back weve done nothing but rot ugh
it cant even get us to contact our therapist anymore cause our brain keeps telling us that shes busy and just ugh
how to overcome always feeling like a burden and just becoming more of onein the process fuckkkk